_ Sunday, June 29, 2008 ;
Finally! All test are over. I bet I have done badly. Saddist. I promise myself to study harder for the upcoming exam. Sometimes I thought to myself, Why am I slow in learning and needed triple effort in studying so i can pass? Why i can make it it secondary school and not in poly? Now i know the answer. In Poly, we should have our own determination to study and need to be automatic to do self-study. I can't rely on the lecturers to nag at us to study anymore. Why am I slow? Because God wants me to learn and this is to let me know that there ain't free loaders. We get what we sow. This is what I have learn in church. And I think this is very true!
On Thursday after my last paper, I went to Causeway to get Ryann birthday present. A lot of people came down for his birthday. I feel so relieve at least all the things got into plan and there wasn't any serious situation popping up.
On Friday, Wai Sian and some of my poly friends plus Jean went to watch 'Zohan'. It was very funny but I feel that there wasn't any morale in the story. But at least it was funny. So I didn't regret. After that I went Cell group. It was a fruitful one. The Cg talk about making wise friends. I found out that I am not a good friend. I don't understand them as well as I thought. I am trying to serve the 8 ways! I will try to understand them from now and serve the 8 ways. After that we celebrate Ryann birthday again in Cg. After the Cg end, we went for fellowshipping at Red Hill's kopitiam.
I hope for the next Cg. I feel so bad not going to service on Saturday. I will go next week! (:
On Thursday after my last paper, I went to Causeway to get Ryann birthday present. A lot of people came down for his birthday. I feel so relieve at least all the things got into plan and there wasn't any serious situation popping up.
On Friday, Wai Sian and some of my poly friends plus Jean went to watch 'Zohan'. It was very funny but I feel that there wasn't any morale in the story. But at least it was funny. So I didn't regret. After that I went Cell group. It was a fruitful one. The Cg talk about making wise friends. I found out that I am not a good friend. I don't understand them as well as I thought. I am trying to serve the 8 ways! I will try to understand them from now and serve the 8 ways. After that we celebrate Ryann birthday again in Cg. After the Cg end, we went for fellowshipping at Red Hill's kopitiam.
I hope for the next Cg. I feel so bad not going to service on Saturday. I will go next week! (:
``With Love ; Ruyi *
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_ Sunday, June 22, 2008 ;
On Friday, I went for Cell group! And guess what? It was so fun!! We played 3 games in total, heart attack, snakes and ladders, stacko!! Hehes. All of the cg members were shouting like mad and got super high when the game started. This madness lasted for about 2 hours. At the end, a lot of us went voiceless. After that it was feasting time! They prepared pasta and drinks for all. Its a pity that I did not eat. Saddist. Too full to squeeze down the pasta. Then there was a prize giving for the first who got lots of stamp during the games. Ryann got they first. 20 stamps he got. When we were about to leave, 3 of us, Ryann, one of the gal (I don't know her name) and I was presented with a gift. RUBIK CUBE!! Ryann and I have actually thought to buy one for ourselves but in the end, they bought it for us. They sure can read our mind. (:
Today I went to the church service. It was a very fruitful service! I learn a lot of significant things like the 3 values of Andrew so on.. We worship and I really feel the presence of God with us! This is the first time I wanted to stay rooted to City Harvest, to God! I feel so blessed in there. Its been a long time since I feel this blessed and relieved. God is really an amazing God! (:
God will bless all! Have faith in miracle healing! (:
Today I went to the church service. It was a very fruitful service! I learn a lot of significant things like the 3 values of Andrew so on.. We worship and I really feel the presence of God with us! This is the first time I wanted to stay rooted to City Harvest, to God! I feel so blessed in there. Its been a long time since I feel this blessed and relieved. God is really an amazing God! (:
God will bless all! Have faith in miracle healing! (:
``With Love ; Ruyi *
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_ Wednesday, June 18, 2008 ;
Yippe!! I am back. Hahas. Back to blog, back in Singapore, back in Woodlands, back in my house on my comfortable bed! During the journey to Genting, I miss a lot of people. I miss my whole lots of friends and him. He is in my mind every minute every seconds. When I am at hotel room, I will wonder how is he, what is he doing then, did he sleep well, is his work days tiring, etc, etc. He never leave my mind before after so long. I thought when I am at elsewhere I won't miss him or even think of him but the facts and the thoughts about him proves me wrong. I miss him more and more when I am not with him. I will pray for him, all my friends and family every night. When can I really treat him as normal friend? Even after so much I miss him, I still don't want admit that I still like him a lot a lot a lot. So much that I can't remove him from my mind and thought of him every time and memories of us keep appearing in my mind.
People ask me," You still like him don't you?" I always left this question unanswered or I will say a strict NO. I don't want people around me to see my weakness. I am stubborn I admit, I am weak in the inside I admit, I am a total failure I totally admit. I never thought Love can bring me to this state. I FAILED myself. All the things I said to people seems to have difficulties to work on me.
God! Give me strength to overcome this obstacles. I want to be strong! Amen.
I am the Ru Yi you all have known for the past years. I have change back to my old self. Cheer for me. This is me. This is the Ru Yi I love, I want, I need.
People ask me," You still like him don't you?" I always left this question unanswered or I will say a strict NO. I don't want people around me to see my weakness. I am stubborn I admit, I am weak in the inside I admit, I am a total failure I totally admit. I never thought Love can bring me to this state. I FAILED myself. All the things I said to people seems to have difficulties to work on me.
God! Give me strength to overcome this obstacles. I want to be strong! Amen.
I am the Ru Yi you all have known for the past years. I have change back to my old self. Cheer for me. This is me. This is the Ru Yi I love, I want, I need.
``With Love ; Ruyi *
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_ Wednesday, June 04, 2008 ;
Yawns. It was a tiring day for me. Rushing my report. Endless torture. Fortunately, I am finishing this report soon. One more day of rushing will be enough for me. I want to complete this report as soon as possible so I can start on my case study. I hope I can finish all my school stuffs by next week Wednesday so I can study for my Mid- Semester test coming up after my break.
He finally message me 2 days ago. I am very happy but confused at the same time. It's very hard to describe how I feel. Happy because at least he still remembers me as a friend. Confused because I actually decide to go out to his church and have a movie with him and his friends that are strangers to me. Hmm.. Really.. Why do I decide to go?? The reason, I also don't know. Am I wanting more from him or just purely wants to be friends with him and just to look at him to see how had he been?? To a lot of people this is a shocked to them that I take this move. Maybe.. Maybe I am still blinded with this split thread. But I still hope that he remembers to remind me about the outing. I am just hoping for too much, isn't it?? He may also forget that I have decided to go out with him to church and movie this Saturday. He may just forget it. I am not important to him anyway.
Since I have said that but why do I still care and anxious about it?? He may not even give it a damn. Why should I care so much? Why am I like this? Why should I even worry if I am to go a not? Why I should? Confused!! Arrgh!! It's getting me crazy! Just go to sleep and don't hope for the impossible!
He finally message me 2 days ago. I am very happy but confused at the same time. It's very hard to describe how I feel. Happy because at least he still remembers me as a friend. Confused because I actually decide to go out to his church and have a movie with him and his friends that are strangers to me. Hmm.. Really.. Why do I decide to go?? The reason, I also don't know. Am I wanting more from him or just purely wants to be friends with him and just to look at him to see how had he been?? To a lot of people this is a shocked to them that I take this move. Maybe.. Maybe I am still blinded with this split thread. But I still hope that he remembers to remind me about the outing. I am just hoping for too much, isn't it?? He may also forget that I have decided to go out with him to church and movie this Saturday. He may just forget it. I am not important to him anyway.
Since I have said that but why do I still care and anxious about it?? He may not even give it a damn. Why should I care so much? Why am I like this? Why should I even worry if I am to go a not? Why I should? Confused!! Arrgh!! It's getting me crazy! Just go to sleep and don't hope for the impossible!
``With Love ; Ruyi *
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