Yawns. It was a tiring day for me. Rushing my report. Endless torture. Fortunately, I am finishing this report soon. One more day of rushing will be enough for me. I want to complete this report as soon as possible so I can start on my case study. I hope I can finish all my school stuffs by next week Wednesday so I can study for my Mid- Semester test coming up after my break.

He finally message me 2 days ago. I am very happy but confused at the same time. It's very hard to describe how I feel. Happy because at least he still remembers me as a friend. Confused because I actually decide to go out to his church and have a movie with him and his friends that are strangers to me. Hmm.. Really.. Why do I decide to go?? The reason, I also don't know. Am I wanting more from him or just purely wants to be friends with him and just to look at him to see how had he been?? To a lot of people this is a shocked to them that I take this move. Maybe.. Maybe I am still blinded with this split thread. But I still hope that he remembers to remind me about the outing. I am just hoping for too much, isn't it?? He may also forget that I have decided to go out with him to church and movie this Saturday. He may just forget it. I am not important to him anyway.

Since I have said that but why do I still care and anxious about it?? He may not even give it a damn. Why should I care so much? Why am I like this? Why should I even worry if I am to go a not? Why I should? Confused!! Arrgh!! It's getting me crazy! Just go to sleep and don't hope for the impossible!