Yippe!! I am back. Hahas. Back to blog, back in Singapore, back in Woodlands, back in my house on my comfortable bed! During the journey to Genting, I miss a lot of people. I miss my whole lots of friends and him. He is in my mind every minute every seconds. When I am at hotel room, I will wonder how is he, what is he doing then, did he sleep well, is his work days tiring, etc, etc. He never leave my mind before after so long. I thought when I am at elsewhere I won't miss him or even think of him but the facts and the thoughts about him proves me wrong. I miss him more and more when I am not with him. I will pray for him, all my friends and family every night. When can I really treat him as normal friend? Even after so much I miss him, I still don't want admit that I still like him a lot a lot a lot. So much that I can't remove him from my mind and thought of him every time and memories of us keep appearing in my mind.

People ask me," You still like him don't you?" I always left this question unanswered or I will say a strict NO. I don't want people around me to see my weakness. I am stubborn I admit, I am weak in the inside I admit, I am a total failure I totally admit. I never thought Love can bring me to this state. I FAILED myself. All the things I said to people seems to have difficulties to work on me.

God! Give me strength to overcome this obstacles. I want to be strong! Amen.

I am the Ru Yi you all have known for the past years. I have change back to my old self. Cheer for me. This is me. This is the Ru Yi I love, I want, I need.