Time to think what is the meaning to live on. Suddenly feel really depressed. Nothing really happen although but just feel that nothing in life is pushing me to live my life to the fullest. There are only 2 things in my life that holds me down. First, my family. Second, my friends. They are the pillars of my life. Without them I would not have joy and a little sense of happiness. But are those 2 the only things I can rely on to bring me happiness and joy? I have been wondering for a long time.

Previously there was more than those 2 things I have said above that keeps me on in this world. In the past, tasting the sweetness of romance and love was one of my plan. But now, I don't even feel like having one. Too much things I have seen and heard from my friends that are going through. Kind of getting really tired in life. No motivation at all. I live in this world just to study and work. I think this is the life everyone of us are going through, will go through and must go through.

I came to earth on August 9 1990. This is the day my mother gave birth to me. My parents raise me up and sooner or later its my turn to repay them. They are not a burden to me. They are my love ones. But is this the only thing I am suppose to do in my whole entire life? I have a lot of friends I admit. Treating them well, spend ample time with them. Is this how I going to live on? Its true they bring me joy that brighten up my 18 years of life. I enjoyed too. But is this what my motive in life?

Sometimes I felt that living in this competitive world is just like solving problems we are causing. But people called them invention or saving the earth. Are we? I feel that we are just creating problems that harms the environment. People are just solving and curing the problems that we, ourselves caused and not doing something to help.

We worked so hard for life, for our living. But how many years can we live happily and enjoy the fortune we make? When we meet death, does the fortune we make meet death with us? Does all the things we have comes and goes with us? NO! They don't. So why do I need to work so hard for? If it isn't for our greediness, competitiveness and desires do we need do work our life out? If it isn't because of our desire do we need to be so stress over things?

Its really pointless to live in this world. The loyalty, determination, perseverance, pureness that everyone use to have are gone due to the changing world. We are indirectly forced to face this reality and grow up overnight. Learning the facts of the cruel world. Facing sadness and sorrows, we are train to build trust from 0% not 100%, we are train not to trust anyone, we are train to turn back on others, we are train to make the world rich and competitive and make ourselves poor. Poor in the sense of character.

Question:
What are we left in the end? What are we left?

Answer:
We left something. Yes, something. We left a empty shell in the world for people that really loves us or know us to remember. Without a heart and soul we are nothing. No emotions, no feelings, expressionless, nothing at all.